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Adrian Lamo
Adrian Lamo

(10:13:20 AM) bradass87: The encrypted message received from bradass87 is unreadable, as you are not currently communicating privately.

(10:13:27 AM) Unverified conversation with bradass87 started.

(10:13:27 AM) bradass87: [resent] <HTML>ping

(10:13:50 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: hello

(10:13:57 AM) bradass87: re: "What's your MOS?" — Intelligence Analyst (35F)

(10:14:08 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: *nod*

(10:14:27 AM) bradass87: anyway, how are you?

(10:14:28 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: my ex was 97B

(10:14:44 AM) bradass87: ick

(10:14:50 AM) bradass87: 35M now-a-days

(10:14:50 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: made for quiet dinner convo. neither of us talked about our days ;>

(10:15:29 AM) bradass87: so yeah

(10:15:41 AM) bradass87: im in a sticky situation...

(10:16:56 AM) bradass87: its nice to meet you btw... only starting to familiarize myself with whats available in open source

(10:17:45 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: open source or OSINT? ;P

(10:17:51 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: Pleased to meet you.

(10:17:54 AM) bradass87: same deal

(10:19:00 AM) bradass87: im kind of coming out of a cocoon... its going to take some time, but i hopefully wont be a ghost anymore

(10:19:53 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: You mentioned gender identity, I believe.

(10:19:59 AM) bradass87: ive had an unusual, and very stressful experience over the last decade or so

(10:20:53 AM) bradass87: yes... questioned my gender for several years... sexual orientation was easy to figure out... but i started to come to terms with it during the first few months of my deployment

(10:21:09 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: May I ask the particulars?

(10:21:34 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: I'm bi myself, and my ex is MTF.

(10:21:34 AM) bradass87: im fairly open... but careful, so yes..

(10:22:00 AM) bradass87: im aware of your bi part

(10:22:24 AM) bradass87: uhm, trying to keep a low profile for now though, just a warning

(10:23:34 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: I'm a journalist and a minister. You can pick either, and treat this as a confession or an interview (never to be published) & enjoy a modicum of legal protection.

(10:24:07 AM) bradass87: assange level?

(10:25:12 AM) bradass87: or are you socially engineering ;P

(10:25:51 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: You must not have done your research :P

(10:25:57 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: I could have flipped for the FBI.

(10:26:05 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: Gotten a sweeter deal.

(10:26:10 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: Before they fucked up.

(10:26:14 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: And I got one anyway.

(10:26:14 AM) bradass87: indeed

(10:26:16 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: I held out.

(10:27:04 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: I know what being in a little room having U.S. Code & its consequences explained to you by people who don't smile is like.

(10:27:06 AM) bradass87: btw, reminds me... saw a USAF report mentioning something about an "Adrian Lamo" being in possession of French classified material

(10:27:57 AM) bradass87: it flips both ways unfortunately... Title 10, Section 654 of US Code

(10:28:06 AM) bradass87: (DADT)

(10:28:29 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: Of course, you could be false flagging me. I say "Can I see it?" and bam, I'm a criminal.

(10:28:52 AM) bradass87: do they do that?

(10:29:10 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: You don't know?

(10:29:33 AM) bradass87: no idea... FBI is the only beast i know nothing about

(10:29:43 AM) bradass87: i play with foreigners

Bradley Manning
Bradley Manning

(10:29:46 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: They have a grudge.

(10:30:09 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: They had to apologize for how they handled my case. In public.

(10:30:13 AM) bradass87: DoS, DoD, CIA, NSA, those are what i know

(10:30:15 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: To the press.

(10:30:25 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: They _hate_ that.

(10:30:32 AM) bradass87: PR games

(10:30:57 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: My file runs 3000 pages. I don't know how typical that is.

(10:31:07 AM) bradass87: very atypical

(10:31:16 AM) bradass87: im sorry i dont have access to LES material

(10:31:29 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: I wouldn't ask you to use such access.

(10:31:40 AM) bradass87: i know, i'd offer it

(10:31:53 AM) bradass87: hold on

(10:33:28 AM) bradass87: this is what i do for friends: http://bit.ly/aLoqUi

(10:35:14 AM) bradass87: [the one below it is mine too]

(10:35:30 AM) bradass87: >sigh<

(10:36:46 AM) bradass87: living such an opaque life, has forced me never to take transparency, openness, and honesty for granted

(10:37:31 AM) bradass87: so...

(10:38:37 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: I've been a friend to Wikileaks — I've repeatedly asked people who download Hackers Wanted to donate.

(10:38:44 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: And donated myself.

(10:38:49 AM) bradass87: i know

(10:38:59 AM) bradass87: actually how i noticed you

(10:39:20 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: Whether I've given material, isn't material. Semi-pun intended.

(10:39:28 AM) bradass87: during my usual open source collection [twitter, news.google.com, etc.]

(10:40:08 AM) bradass87: >nod<

(10:40:51 AM) bradass87: they've got a lot of ammunition, its the support they need from the public in publishing the material coming through soon

(10:41:42 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: In general terms, have you seen my name anywhere else I'm not aware of? I specify no particular venue.

(10:41:59 AM) bradass87: not really...

(10:42:55 AM) bradass87: uhm OGA networks have you at 7 results, all OSINT copy/pastes... not connected to Law Enforcement stuff

(10:44:10 AM) bradass87: 1 mention of your name with the french classified material... but it was from a product that is over-written daily... since the producer doesn't archive, couldn't access the full bit

(10:45:13 AM) bradass87: im sorry, if seem kind of creepy

(10:45:18 AM) bradass87: s/if/if i

(10:45:32 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: You don't know how creepy my contacts get.

(10:45:49 AM) bradass87: how does this one rate ?

(10:46:10 AM) bradass87: quantitively... 1-10 scale perhaps?

(10:47:16 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: 7ish. 1/1 on reliability/quality of data based on statements made. Even odds on being a false flag.

(10:47:20 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: Nothing personal.

(10:47:57 AM) bradass87: its ok

(10:48:00 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: This is dangerous. I've learned my lessons in tightropes.

(10:48:05 AM) bradass87: i've got time

(10:48:43 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: Would you know if a specific person had authored a report/paper?

(10:49:23 AM) bradass87: not really...

(10:49:42 AM) bradass87: bureaucrats usually aren't that intelligent i find

(10:49:54 AM) bradass87: [re: false flag]

(10:50:03 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: Webster, Timothy D.

(10:51:05 AM) bradass87: who's that?

(10:51:21 AM) bradass87: he's an author obviously

(10:51:28 AM) bradass87: Sex and Intimacy [goog]

(10:51:59 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: SA with NGA (former)

(10:52:18 AM) bradass87: squints

(10:52:22 AM) bradass87: >shiver<

(10:53:01 AM) bradass87: squints creep me out

(10:53:06 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: Specialty FCI in cyber-areas.

Bradley Manning
Bradley Manning

(10:53:53 AM) bradass87: no idea...

(10:54:45 AM) bradass87: im not really sure where this is going... apart from awkward weirdness

(10:55:31 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: I apologize if I've made you feel awkward.

(10:55:37 AM) bradass87: no, its me

(10:55:54 AM) bradass87: i said too much too fast

(10:55:59 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: He wrote a paper a while back, I was curious how it had been received by the IC.

(10:56:36 AM) bradass87: i guess i can find out, though im restricted to SIPR now, because of the discharge proceedings

(10:58:10 AM) bradass87: am i coming off too quick? ive closed myself off for awhile... so

(10:58:41 AM) bradass87: i thought i'd reach out to someone who would possibly understand...

(10:59:07 AM) bradass87: <— [this person is kind of fragile]

(10:59:29 AM) bradass87: :'(

(11:00:53 AM) bradass87: anyway, i'm going to go to the PX for a minute... i'll be back in about 30-40 min?

(11:01:39 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: i'll be around

(11:01:43 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: i usually am

(11:01:44 AM) bradass87: k

(11:01:47 AM) bradass87: ttyl

(11:01:48 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: around and understanding both

(11:02:17 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: be well, and stay out of trouble

(11:22:11 AM) bradass87: wow, that was quick

(11:22:50 AM) bradass87: uhm... anyway... i guess i can talk a little bit about myself... i mean, i've really got nothing to lose [i know, sounds desperate]

(11:23:19 AM) bradass87: i was born in central oklahoma, grew up in a small town called crescent, just north of oklahoma city

(11:23:59 AM) bradass87: dad was a manager of computer programmers at hertz corporation, doing legacy maint., etc

(11:24:41 AM) bradass87: mother was british (specifically welsh), married father while he was stationed at an air force base in southwest wales

(11:25:18 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: I'm of Scottish & Welsh descent.

(11:25:22 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: On one side.

(11:27:18 AM) bradass87: i was a short (still am), very intelligent (could read at 3 and multiply / divide by 4), very effeminate, and glued to a computer screen at these young ages [MSDOS / Windows 3.1 timeframe]... i played SimCity [the original] obsessively

(11:27:40 AM) bradass87: an easy target by kindergarten...

(11:28:07 AM) bradass87: grew up in a highly evangelical town with more church pews than people

(11:28:48 AM) bradass87: so, i got pretty messed up at school... "girly boy" "teacher's pet", etc

(11:29:57 AM) bradass87: home was the same, alcoholic father and mother... mother was very nice, but very needy emotionally... father was very wealthy (lots of nice toys / computer stuff), but abusive

(11:31:07 AM) bradass87: my favorite things growing up were reading my encyclopaedia, watching PBS (the only channel i could get on my TV) building with lego, and playing on my dad's hand-me-down computers

(11:31:42 AM) bradass87: i lived in the middle of nowhere, so i had no neighbors to hang out with... and my dad would never take me anyway, because after work he'd hit the bottle

(11:32:58 AM) bradass87: i was a science fair buff... won grand prize in my town 3 years in a row... and played on the "academic bowl team" as team leader (which meant state championship!)

(11:33:46 AM) bradass87: i didnt like getting beat up or called gay [didn't really know what gay meant, but knew it was something bad]

(11:34:06 AM) bradass87: so i joined sports teams, and started becoming an athlete

(11:34:19 AM) bradass87: around this time (middle school)... my parents divorced

Bradley Manning
Bradley Manning

(11:36:34 AM) bradass87: my father in a drunken stupor got angry with me because i was doing some noisy homework while he was watching TV... he went into his bedroom, pulled out a shotgun, and chased me out of the house... the door was deadbolted, so i couldn't get out before he caught up with me... so my mother (also wasted) threw a lamp over his head... and i proceeded to fight him, breaking his nose, and made it out of the house... my father let off one or two shots, causing damage, but injuring nobody, except for the belt lashing i got for "making him shoot up the house"

(11:36:59 AM) bradass87: i went to school the next day, and my teachers noticed the wounds, and got social workers involved

(11:37:11 AM) bradass87: he immediately stopped drinking, and my mother filed for divorce

(11:37:29 AM) bradass87: after the divorce, my mother attempted suicide...

(11:38:23 AM) bradass87: after taking care of her for awhile, and gaining custody of me, my mother took me to her hometown, haverfordwest, wales... to live and go to school

(11:38:49 AM) bradass87: i spent four years in the UK, continuing my education

(11:39:13 AM) bradass87: i also started playing around more and more with computers, specificially webservers

(11:39:54 AM) bradass87: to try and mitigate various financial problems while going to school, i got the idea with a rather sly friend to form an internet startup...

(11:40:25 AM) bradass87: http://web.archive.org/web/*/http://www.angeldyne.com <- archive

(11:40:57 AM) bradass87: we fell out over various issues... and the project was ended, luckily without any losses

(11:41:57 AM) bradass87: i learned a lot about running LAMP servers... sql jazz, routing, as well as the business stuff, PR etc...

(11:42:24 AM) bradass87: after that fell through, my education started to slip behind... as my mother started getting very ill

(11:42:43 AM) bradass87: she had a minor stroke... then a mild one... and i was getting desperate

(11:43:02 AM) bradass87: so i called my father, and begged him to live in the US again

(11:43:19 AM) bradass87: my passport had expired though... so i had to travel overnight to london

(11:44:11 AM) bradass87: i stayed at a hostel in the kings cross area overnight, and left to go to hyde park [where all the embassies are]

(11:45:13 AM) bradass87: what really sucked though, was that as i entered the station... all hell started breaking loose... there was a horrific boom, screaming, sirens, and thick black smoke... it was july 7th 2005...

(11:45:39 AM) bradass87: i panicked and went by foot, not knowing what was going on

(11:45:47 AM) info@adrianlamo.com: sorry for latency ... things demanding my attention are exceeding my capacity to allocate resources, forcing me to double-book mentally, and that only scales so far.

(11:46:04 AM) bradass87: its ok, im just venting a lot

(11:47:28 AM) bradass87: im very isolated atm... lost all of my emotional support channels... family, boyfriend, trusting colleagues... im a mess

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(11:49:02 AM) bradass87: im in the desert, with a bunch of hyper-masculine trigger happy ignorant rednecks as neighbors... and the only safe place i seem to have is this satellite internet connection

(11:49:51 AM) bradass87: and i already got myself into minor trouble, revealing my uncertainty over my gender identity... which is causing me to lose this job... and putting me in an awkward limbo

(11:50:54 AM) bradass87: i wish it were as simple as "hey, go transition"... but i need to get paperwork sorted... financial stuff sorted... legal stuff... and im still deployed, so i have to redeploy back to the US and be outprocessed

(11:52:09 AM) bradass87: i could be hanging out here in limbo as a super-intelligent, awkwardly effeminate supply guy [pick up these boxes and move them] for up to two months

(11:52:23 AM) bradass87: at the very least, i managed to keep my security clearance [so far]

(11:57:49 AM) bradass87: im sorry, im a total mess right now... :'(

(11:58:33 AM) bradass87: and little does anyone know, but among this "visible" mess, theres the mess i created that no-one knows about yet

(11:58:59 AM) bradass87: i have no idea what im doing right now

(12:00:34 PM) bradass87: im so sorry

(12:04:36 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: don't be sorry, just give me a chance to read :P

(12:06:18 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: how did this not come up as an issue in your background check? I'm guessing you have an S and not a TS.

(12:06:29 PM) bradass87: TS/SCI

(12:06:47 PM) bradass87: i enlisted in 2007... height of iraq war, no-one double checked much

(12:07:06 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: Well, hell, if you made it in, maybe I should reconsider the offer I got from what used to be JTF-CNO.

(12:07:09 PM) bradass87: background checks are jokes anyway

(12:07:23 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: It's hit-or-miss.

(12:08:04 PM) bradass87: JTF-CNO wouldn't have been worth it

(12:10:21 PM) bradass87: they are a mess, and wholly dependent on frivolous network security contracts and physically securing networks

(12:10:58 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: I doubt they'd hire me to dick around with that.

(12:11:03 PM) bradass87: i've been penetrating *.smil.mil networks for over a year

(12:11:21 PM) bradass87: as well as *.sgov.gov

(12:11:49 PM) bradass87: ive created a massive mess

(12:12:30 PM) bradass87: and no-one has a clue, because 95% of efforts are on physical security of classified networks... and managing OPSEC on unclassified networks

(12:12:46 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: Want to go to the press? :)

(12:12:51 PM) bradass87: no

(12:12:59 PM) bradass87: theres an issue with that

(12:13:01 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: open offer.

(12:15:11 PM) bradass87: hypothetical question: if you had free reign over classified networks for long periods of time... say, 8-9 months... and you saw incredible things, awful things... things that belonged in the public domain, and not on some server stored in a dark room in Washington DC... what would you do?

(12:16:38 PM) bradass87: or Guantanamo, Bagram, Bucca, Taji, VBC for that matter...

(12:17:47 PM) bradass87: things that would have an impact on 6.7 billion people

(12:21:24 PM) bradass87: say... a database of half a million events during the iraq war... from 2004 to 2009... with reports, date time groups, lat-lon locations, casualty figures... ? or 260,000 state department cables from embassies and consulates all over the world, explaining how the first world exploits the third, in detail, from an internal perspective?

Bradley Manning
Bradley Manning

(12:22:49 PM) bradass87: the air-gap has been penetrated... =L

(12:23:19 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: how so?

(12:26:09 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: yt?

(12:26:09 PM) bradass87: lets just say *someone* i know intimately well, has been penetrating US classified networks, mining data like the ones described... and been transferring that data from the classified networks over the "air gap" onto a commercial network computer... sorting the data, compressing it, encrypting it, and uploading it to a crazy white haired aussie who can't seem to stay in one country very long =L

(12:27:13 PM) bradass87: im here

(12:27:24 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: Depends. What are the particulars?

(12:28:19 PM) bradass87: theres substantial lag i think

(12:29:52 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: I don't understand.

(12:30:13 PM) bradass87: what was the last message you recieved?

(12:30:47 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: (12:28:19 PM) bradass87: theres substantial lag i think

(12:30:56 PM) bradass87: before that

(12:31:09 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: (12:26:09 PM) bradass87: lets just say *someone* i know intimately well, has been penetrating US classified networks, mining data like the ones described... and been transferring that data from the classified networks over the "air gap" onto a commercial network computer... sorting the data, compressing it, encrypting it, and uploading it to a crazy white haired aussie who can't seem to stay in one country very long =L

(12:27:13 PM) bradass87: im here

(12:27:24 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: Depends. What are the particulars?

(12:31:43 PM) bradass87: crazy white haired dude = Julian Assange

(12:33:05 PM) bradass87: in other words... ive made a huge mess :'(

(12:35:17 PM) bradass87: im sorry... im just emotionally fractured

(12:39:12 PM) bradass87: im a total mess

(12:41:54 PM) bradass87: i think im in more potential heat than you ever were

(12:41:54 PM) info@adrianlamo.com <AUTO-REPLY>: I have more messages than resources allocatable to action them. Please be very patient.

(12:45:59 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: not mandatorily

(12:46:08 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: there are always outs

(12:46:17 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: how long have you helped WIkileaks?

(12:49:09 PM) bradass87: since they released the 9/11 "pager messages"

(12:49:38 PM) bradass87: i immediately recognized that they were from an NSA database, and i felt comfortable enough to come forward

(12:50:20 PM) bradass87: so... right after thanksgiving timeframe of 2009

(12:52:33 PM) bradass87: Hilary Clinton, and several thousand diplomats around the world are going to have a heart attack when they wake up one morning, and finds an entire repository of classified foreign policy is available, in searchable format to the public... =L

(12:53:41 PM) bradass87: s/Hilary/Hillary

(12:54:47 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: What sort of content?

(12:56:36 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: brb cigarette

(12:56:43 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: keep typing <3

(12:59:41 PM) bradass87: uhm... crazy, almost criminal political backdealings... the non-PR-versions of world events and crises... uhm... all kinds of stuff like everything from the buildup to the Iraq War during Powell, to what the actual content of "aid packages" is: for instance, PR that the US is sending aid to pakistan includes funding for water/food/clothing... that much is true, it includes that, but the other 85% of it is for F-16 fighters and munitions to aid in the Afghanistan effort, so the US can call in Pakistanis to do aerial bombing instead of americans potentially killing civilians and creating a PR crisis

Bradley Manning
Bradley Manning

(1:00:57 PM) bradass87: theres so much... it affects everybody on earth... everywhere there's a US post... there's a diplomatic scandal that will be revealed... Iceland, the Vatican, Spain, Brazil, Madascar, if its a country, and its recognized by the US as a country, its got dirt on it

(1:01:27 PM) bradass87: i need one myself

(1:10:38 PM) bradass87: its open diplomacy... world-wide anarchy in CSV format... its Climategate with a global scope, and breathtaking depth... its beautiful, and horrifying...

(1:10:38 PM) info@adrianlamo.com <AUTO-REPLY>: I have more messages than resources allocatable to action them. Please be very patient.

(1:11:54 PM) bradass87: and... its important that it gets out... i feel, for some bizarre reason

(1:12:02 PM) bradass87: it might actually change something

(1:13:10 PM) bradass87: i just... dont wish to be a part of it... at least not now... im not ready... i wouldn't mind going to prison for the rest of my life, or being executed so much, if it wasn't for the possibility of having pictures of me... plastered all over the world press... as boy...

(1:14:11 PM) bradass87: i've totally lost my mind... i make no sense... the CPU is not made for this motherboard...

(1:14:42 PM) bradass87: s/as boy/as a boy

(1:30:32 PM) bradass87: >sigh<

(1:31:40 PM) bradass87: i just wanted enough time to figure myself out... to be myself... and be running around all the time, trying to meet someone else's expectations

(1:32:01 PM) bradass87: *and not be

(1:33:03 PM) bradass87: im just kind of drifting now...

(1:34:11 PM) bradass87: waiting to redeploy to the US, be discharged... and figure out how on earth im going to transition

(1:34:45 PM) bradass87: all while witnessing the world freak out as its most intimate secrets are revealed

(1:35:06 PM) bradass87: its such an awkward place to be in, emotionally and psychologically

(1:35:06 PM) info@adrianlamo.com <AUTO-REPLY>: I have more messages than resources allocatable to action them. Please be very patient.

(1:39:03 PM) bradass87: i cant believe what im confessing to you :'(

(1:40:20 PM) bradass87: ive been so isolated so long... i just wanted to be nice, and live a normal life... but events kept forcing me to figure out ways to survive... smart enough to know whats going on, but helpless to do anything... no-one took any notice of me

(1:40:43 PM) bradass87: :'(

(1:43:51 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: back

(1:43:59 PM) bradass87: im self medicating like crazy when im not toiling in the supply office (my new location, since im being discharged, im not offically intel anymore)

(1:44:11 PM) bradass87: you missed a lot...

(1:45:00 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: what kind of scandal?

(1:45:16 PM) bradass87: hundreds of them

(1:45:40 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: like what? I'm genuinely curious about details.

(1:46:01 PM) bradass87: i dont know... theres so many... i dont have the original material anymore

(1:46:18 PM) bradass87: uhmm... the Holy See and its position on the Vatican sex scandals

(1:46:26 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: play it by ear

(1:46:29 PM) bradass87: the broiling one in Germany

(1:47:36 PM) bradass87: im sorry, there's so many... its impossible for any one human to read all quarter-million... and not feel overwhelmed... and possibly desensitized

Bradley Manning
Bradley Manning

(1:48:20 PM) bradass87: the scope is so broad... and yet the depth so rich

(1:48:50 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: give me some bona fides ... yanno? any specifics.

(1:49:40 PM) bradass87: this one was a test: Classified cable from US Embassy Reykjavik on Icesave dated 13 Jan 2010

(1:50:30 PM) bradass87: the result of that one was that the icelandic ambassador to the US was recalled, and fired

(1:51:02 PM) bradass87: thats just one cable...

(1:51:14 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: Anything unreleased?

(1:51:25 PM) bradass87: i'd have to ask assange

(1:51:53 PM) bradass87: i zerofilled the original

(1:51:54 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: why do you answer to him?

(1:52:29 PM) bradass87: i dont... i just want the material out there... i dont want to be a part of it

(1:52:54 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: i've been considering helping wikileaks with opsec

(1:53:13 PM) bradass87: they have decent opsec... im obviously violating it

(1:53:34 PM) bradass87: im a wreck

(1:53:47 PM) bradass87: im a total fucking wreck right now

(1:54:04 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: not really. 2600 is an ally of wikileaks.

(1:54:10 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: how old are you?

(1:54:15 PM) bradass87: 22

(1:54:55 PM) bradass87: but im not a source for you... im talking to you as someone who needs moral and emotional fucking support

(1:55:02 PM) bradass87: :'(

(1:55:10 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: i told you, none of this is for print

(1:55:16 PM) bradass87: ok, ok

(1:55:19 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: i want to know who i'm supporting

(1:55:25 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: no names as yet

(1:55:26 PM) bradass87: im flipping out...

(1:55:32 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: security.

(1:55:43 PM) bradass87: huh?

(1:55:51 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: re. no names as yet.

(1:55:56 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: except brad, i assume.

(1:56:23 PM) bradass87: ive already sent you full name in emails...

(1:56:43 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: oh! you're the PGP guy

(1:56:52 PM) bradass87: yeah, im sorry

(1:56:57 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: i'm an idiot

(1:57:33 PM) bradass87: im pretty reckless at this point

(1:57:53 PM) bradass87: but im trying not to end up with 5.56mm rounds in my forehead...

(1:58:38 PM) bradass87: that i fired..

(2:00:18 PM) bradass87: im not lying when i say im totally out of it right now

(2:01:02 PM) bradass87: ok, so... im not suicidal quite yet...

(2:01:14 PM) bradass87: but im pretty desperate for some non-isolation

(2:02:34 PM) bradass87: idk anymore

(2:04:29 PM) bradass87: im a source, not quite a volunteer

(2:05:38 PM) bradass87: i mean, im a high profile source... and i've developed a relationship with assange... but i dont know much more than what he tells me, which is very little

(2:05:58 PM) bradass87: it took me four months to confirm that the person i was communicating was in fact assange

(2:10:01 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: how'd you do that?

(2:12:45 PM) bradass87: I gathered more info when i questioned him whenever he was being tailed in Sweden by State Department officials... i was trying to figure out who was following him... and why... and he was telling me stories of other times he's been followed... and they matched up with the ones he's said publicly

(2:14:28 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: did that bear out? the surveillance?

Bradley Manning
Bradley Manning

(2:14:46 PM) bradass87: based on the description he gave me, I assessed it was the Northern Europe Diplomatic Security Team... trying to figure out how he got the Reykjavik cable...

(2:15:57 PM) bradass87: they also caught wind that he had a video... of the Gharani airstrike in afghanistan, which he has, but hasn't decrypted yet... the production team was actually working on the Baghdad strike though, which was never really encrypted

(2:16:22 PM) bradass87: he's got the whole 15-6 for that incident... so it wont just be video with no context

(2:16:55 PM) bradass87: but its not nearly as damning... it was an awful incident, but nothing like the baghdad one

(2:17:59 PM) bradass87: the investigating officers left the material unprotected, sitting in a directory on a centcom.smil.mil

(2:18:03 PM) bradass87: server

(2:18:56 PM) bradass87: but they did zip up the files, aes-256, with an excellent password... so afaik it hasn't been broken yet

(2:19:12 PM) bradass87: 14+ chars...

(2:19:37 PM) bradass87: i can't believe what im telling you =L

(2:19:50 PM) bradass87: ive had too many chinks in my armor :'(

(2:20:52 PM) bradass87: im a broken soul =L

(2:21:22 PM) bradass87: i need to go eat, ill brb

(2:21:26 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: *hug*

(2:21:39 PM) bradass87: thank you :'( it means a lot

(2:54:21 PM) bradass87: im sorry

(2:54:21 PM) info@adrianlamo.com <AUTO-REPLY>: I have more messages than resources allocatable to action them. Please be very patient.

(2:55:00 PM) bradass87: im just... ugh

(2:56:34 PM) bradass87: my family is non-supportive... my boyfriend ditched me without telling me... im losing my job... losing my career options... i dont have much more except for this laptop, some books, and a hell of a story

(2:57:25 PM) bradass87: ...im honestly, scared

(2:57:32 PM) bradass87: and i have no-one i trust

(2:58:21 PM) bradass87: i need a lot of help...

(2:58:48 PM) bradass87: i dont know if i can rebuild from here...

(3:00:43 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: you can always rebuild.

(3:01:03 PM) bradass87: yes, but i cant KEEP rebuilding all the damn time... im exhausted

(3:01:26 PM) bradass87: i didnt get into my bout with homelessness across the country in '06

(3:01:45 PM) bradass87: i drifted from oklahoma city, to tulsa, to chicago, and finally landed at my aunt's house in DC

(3:02:29 PM) bradass87: im exhausted... in desperation to get somewhere in life... i joined the army... and that's proven to be a disaster now

(3:02:49 PM) bradass87: i've done a lot of random stuff, that no-one knows about...

(3:03:09 PM) bradass87: its just such a disconnect between myself, and what i know... and what people see

(3:04:57 PM) bradass87: and now i'm quite possibly on the verge of being the most notorious "hacktivist" or whatever you want to call it... its all a big mess i've created... im sorry, adrian...

(3:05:51 PM) bradass87: im pouring my heart out to someone i've never met, and i dont exactly have a lot of proof of anything

(3:05:59 PM) bradass87: im shattered

(3:06:47 PM) bradass87: im so exhausted :'(

Bradley Manning
Bradley Manning

(3:07:10 PM) bradass87: im a real downer...

(3:11:13 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: no apologies needed

(3:12:00 PM) bradass87: >gulp<

(3:12:34 PM) bradass87: i wish i could explain the pain

(3:12:39 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: are you on Facebook?

(3:12:56 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: As an aside, are you concerned about prosecution?

(3:13:02 PM) bradass87: sort of... you cant find me

(3:13:15 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: Your MICE seems to be ideology.

(3:14:37 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: I can't find a SPC in 2BCT 10MTN S2?

(3:15:14 PM) bradass87: AKO?

(3:15:39 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: Nope.

(3:16:06 PM) bradass87: http://www.us.army.mil/ login: first.last

(3:16:45 PM) bradass87: pass: [redacted] [no spaces]

(3:17:06 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: wanna sponsor me for an AKO account? I used to have one ;>

(3:17:14 PM) bradass87: sure

(3:17:32 PM) bradass87: use mine, its not really of any use to me right now

(3:17:47 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: negatory

(3:17:48 PM) bradass87: sorry "! @ #"

(3:18:05 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: i just wanted adrian.lamo@us.army.mil back

(3:18:24 PM) bradass87: ok

(3:18:59 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: remember, finding stuff is what I do. and curiosity is my game.

(3:19:08 PM) bradass87: i know

(3:19:23 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: including your personal ad from 3 years ago.

(3:19:32 PM) bradass87: which one?

(3:19:50 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: i closed the window; it wasn't relevant

(3:20:13 PM) bradass87: oh... via bradass87... i dont know how that one got set up...

(3:20:14 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: sadly, it lacked a photo

(3:20:33 PM) bradass87: its from some kind of weird fetish site...

(3:20:37 PM) bradass87: they wouldn't let me delete it

(3:21:07 PM) bradass87: im pretty ghostly... interwebbies-wise

(3:21:43 PM) bradass87: is there a public facebook i can add you from?

(3:22:59 PM) bradass87: wow, xanga... didnt know i had a xanga account

(3:23:15 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: what do you mean re. facebook

(3:24:06 PM) bradass87: mine is not public... you must be a friend to see it... or a friend of a friend to even know it exists

(3:24:23 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: facebook.com/felon

(3:24:54 PM) bradass87: requested

(3:25:41 PM) bradass87: god that pacman thing is starting to get annoying

(3:26:14 PM) bradass87: enjoyed it at first, but now everytime i open a new browser window... whoo-whoo-whoo-whoo-whoo

(3:26:53 PM) bradass87: let me make more info available to you

(3:27:00 PM) bradass87: hold on, need change my privacy settings

(3:28:10 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: you're kinda cute.

(3:28:44 PM) bradass87: refresh, you should be able to see more... check to see if you can see more photo albums

(3:29:33 PM) bradass87: http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc3/hs024.snc3/11156_220539393205_642858205_4368726_2680909_n.jpg

(3:29:46 PM) bradass87: one of the few times you will ever see the inside of a SCIF

(3:30:09 PM) bradass87: the map in the background is classified SECRET//REL TO USA, MCFI

(3:31:11 PM) bradass87: behind the cabinet, with the blue bucket on top... is the entrance to the SIGINT section

(3:31:42 PM) bradass87: is where they process all the recorded phone data from towers in all of eastern baghdad

(3:32:27 PM) bradass87: interrogator chick on top right corner

(3:33:04 PM) bradass87: you can see me slowly descending spiritually in the wall posts

(3:35:09 PM) bradass87: i cant really seem to define my ideology

Bradley Manning
Bradley Manning

(3:36:07 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: You already have my most permissive privacy settings.

(3:36:26 PM) bradass87: you can see all of my albums?

(3:38:39 PM) bradass87: we have two mutual friends, how interesting

(3:40:08 PM) bradass87: small world

(3:41:39 PM) bradass87: >sigh<

(3:41:51 PM) bradass87: lauren your "ex" ?

(3:42:15 PM) bradass87: tyler watkins would be mine... fucking ditched me

(3:42:30 PM) bradass87: im still utterly flabberghasted

(3:43:13 PM) bradass87: i dont know... i cant seem to hold a relationship... i've got so much baggage

(3:45:04 PM) bradass87: im all mixed up

(3:46:14 PM) bradass87: lost a lot... in a short period of time

(3:48:20 PM) bradass87: im a mess, huh

(3:49:41 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: i'm familiar with loss

(3:49:52 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: lauren's in AZ

(3:50:36 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: was that a yay or nay on the AKO sponsorship, or does your acc't have that ability?

(3:51:31 PM) bradass87: cant seem to do it without confirmation of spouse anymore... seems to be no way around it... also, you'd be booted out by the time i get discharged

(3:55:06 PM) bradass87: i dont know how im going to break the news to everyone...

(3:56:16 PM) bradass87: how would you rate the ethics of my situation?

(4:03:06 PM) bradass87: ugh, im a mess

(4:07:14 PM) bradass87: what ideology do i seem to be following?

(4:16:28 PM) bradass87: :sigh:

(4:16:34 PM) bradass87: *sigh*

(4:28:34 PM) bradass87: i'll work on the ako tomorrow... its getting awfully late... need sleep

(4:54:44 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: sorry ... i'm just swamped today. i'll be more talkative in the future.

(4:55:16 PM) info@adrianlamo.com: keep your chin up. for me. *re-hug*

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