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Unbeknownst to Liz, Marjorie, his family, and his friends, Ted
was an immediate and thorough failure in law school. Eight years
after he had first been enrolled as a freshman at the University of
Puget Sound, Ted expected to return as a graduate student and to
find clear-eyed and fastidious young men like himself. What he
encountered on orientation day was a motley assortment of aspiring
legal scholars who ranged in appearance from the well groomed to the
scruffy. And instead of his vision of an ivied citadel --Ted
Bundy’s idea of what a proper law school should look like -- he
found a small night school housed temporarily in an anonymous office
building in downtown Tacoma. He was appalled.
Ted was unbothered that he had to subsist that autumn on unemployment
checks, but the perceived taint of attending a “second rate” law
school was every bit as demeaning to him in his mid-twenties as
Johnnie and Louise’s boxy Ramblers were to him as a child. Rigidly
fixed on image and emotionally incapable of having much perspective
on his circumstances, Ted could not make the best of the situation.
In no time, he was hopelessly behind the rest of the class, unable
to grasp what his professors were trying to teach him; it was a
repeat of his 1967 burnout in Chinese studies. The rest of the fall
and winter of 1973 would be a period of unrelieved dolor for him.
By December of 1973, Ted had secretly reapplied to the University
of Utah College of Law. He told no one of the decision until the
following spring, and the new application to Utah made no mention of
his current enrollment at the UPS night law school. Utah accepted
Ted once again, but he would not be leaving for Salt Lake City until
September of 1974.
In the middle of his year at UPS -- when the young girls began to
disappear around the region -- Ted kept up a convincing show
of eager involvement with his studies. He attended classes
faithfully until near the end of the spring term, and he applied
himself to the material every few weeks when it was his turn to lead
his study-group discussion. He wasn’t lying to Liz or his mom when
he said that he spent much of his time in the law library. What he
didn’t tell them was that he spent most of his time there
daydreaming. Fantasizing.
He was driven ever deeper into himself, into his cyclical and
secret depressions. In his solitude, Ted devised complex rationales
for the gaps between his wish to succeed and the reality of his
failure, all the while guarding the secret of his inner turmoil from
the people who thought they were close to him. He was very good at
the deception, all bright-eyed and bushy-tailed when the occasion
demanded. But his tissue of deceits began to double back on him at
Christmastime. Liz had flown to Utah to be with her family, while
Marjorie, ignorant of Liz and almost everything else to do with Ted,
came north for the holidays.
For a week, she stayed with Ted in the Vortmans’ apartment
while Marlin and Sheila were away on vacation in Hawaii. While the
previous summer Ted had even convinced himself that his life was
back on course, now he had to re-create the role of Changed Man from
memory. He succeeded too well; Marjorie liked what she saw and she
wanted to talk marriage. They discussed it for days -- Marjorie in
earnest and Ted, under mounting pressure, with the appearance of
sincerity. He conned Marjorie again, just as he had repeatedly
conned Liz. She flew home to California thinking that she was
engaged to be married.
Ted’s well-practiced faculty for compartmentalization was at
work again. He took Marjorie to the airport and kissed her good-bye.
Then he sped in his Volkswagen over to see the other woman he
insisted he loved. Ted found Liz in her kitchen with an apron on.
The tableau was warm, domestic. He remembers that dinner aromas
filled the air that night. Liz smiled up at him and soon they were
making love, the most passionate love they had ever made.
A month later, as the futile search for Joyce and Jim Healy’s
daughter Lynda was being given periodic mention in the Seattle
papers, Ted had his one final confrontation with Marjorie. She had
occupied a segregated section of his mind for seven years, an ideal
woman whose heart he’d won, lost, recaptured, and now would break.
Just as Ted could never fully explain to us his feelings for Liz, he
also never understood his relationship with Marjorie. He hadn’t
exchanged a word with her since their Christmas betrothal; he had
hoped by ignoring the situation to make it go away. But she
telephoned him at his apartment on a Saturday evening. He had just
returned from taking the Law School Aptitude Test for yet another
time and was tucking into a six-pack of beer when the phone rang.
“Why the hell haven’t you written or called!” he remembered
Marjorie yelling. “What kind of way is this for you to treat
me?”
Partially anesthetized by the beer, Ted listened serenely to her
tirade. He didn’t apologize. He didn’t explain. He just acted
cool. “Don’t ever bother to get in touch with me again,” she
told him.
“Well,” Ted recalls replying, “far out, you know.”
She hung up and he cracked open another beer. “I felt like the
gods had spoken,” he told me. “I felt doubly relieved. This
meant it was all off my back.”
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